Weight Watchers and the Holidays

Well, I joined Weight Watchers on September 9th.  To date I have lost 13 pounds.  Well, I HAD lost 13 pounds.  It was a hard week and I didn't make my meeting to see where I am on the scale.  It was a "comfort food" week and I know that isn't good.

This time of year is awful for many of us.  I am one of those people.  My father died 2 days after Christmas when I was 12.  I miss my three oldest kids who are in Illinois and I can't see them due to financial restraint. My step-father is dying of cancer and I don't know when I'll see him again.  If I will.

So enough whining.  I say this to help those of an "underweight" persuasion to realize that us fat gals eat when we are sad.  At least this one does.  I find comfort in food which is unfortunate.  Food is the ONLY thing I can control in this life and, obviously, that has been "out-of-control" for years.  Sad how Satan makes me think that I have to control things by food and I see the results of that thinking on my hips and everywhere else.

SO...my WW meetings are on Wednesday nights.  I start a new week every Thursday.  Yesterday I was sick and didn't "feel" like doing anything right.  How am I going to change this week?  I'd like to go to God and ask Him to comfort me instead of the gynormous pot of homeade chili in the fridge.  I'm going to give Him a chance.  I am also planning to do some more yoga.  Every time I do I feel amazing!  So, we'll see.  I hope I remember to keep blogging.  Might just be therapy. :)

Yoga, salad, and hair straigtener

Okay so today was a day of self-discovery.  I have felt the itch to try Yoga for a while now, but haven't.  Some part of me thought, "Well, it isn't Christian and what if I get tainted?"  Today, I tried it anyway.  The lady we are staying with has some beginner Yoga dvd's so I thought, "I am going to try this and just see how it feels."  It was awesome!  Let me explain:


There I was...the picture of relaxation...and it felt wonderful.  I didn't know my body could feel so good!  I was doing things that seemed so simple, yet I was sweating and breathing hard and my body was saying, "Thank you!"  I know and LOVE my Jesus.  I know He is my power and strength.  Although there may be some negative connotations involved with some Yoga practices, I think my body is going to enjoy it thoroughly.  Besides, I would not give up my Jesus for some Hindu "god".  Too bad there isn't a Christian Yoga or something.  Maybe there is.  I'll have to check it out.


All I know is that walking isn't a certain religion.  Aerobics isn't either.  Why should Yoga be a problem?  It felt great and my body thanked me for it.


I felt so good afterwards that when we went out to dinner, I ate salad and soup.  We went to a wonderful Italian place and I ate salad and soup!  That is something in and of itself!  It was delicious and I felt better by eating right.  


Oh and on a side note:  I discovered that a Hair Straightener is my friend.  I think it made me appear to have lost 10 pounds and that is good.  SO.....what does all of this have to do with God and weight loss?  Well, I felt in touch with my body for once.  Usually I feel very disconnected.  I was so in tune that I felt wonderful and I know that was a gift from God.  He is so good.  Thank you, Lord, for the great day!

Here I go again

So, here I am again.  My first blog, but not my first time trying to lose weight and gain health.  I figure it is a long road and only I can begin the journey.  I have to be the one to put my feet on the path and move them towards where God wants me to be.  Only I can't do this alone.  I have tried that often enough and failed.  Somehow I have to remember to hold onto my Savior's hand or I will fail.  


There is a story in the Bible where Peter walks out onto the water to reach his Savior, Jesus.  He is walking on water and doing just fine until he loses site of and faith in the One he is walking toward.  He begins to rely on self and not the power that Jesus supplies.  I suppose I would too, if there were waves all around me and fish beneath my feet. ha!  Who wouldn't?  This time on my journey, I am going to try my best to let Jesus teach me and stop trying to teach myself!


Currently, I don't even know for sure how much I weigh.  I know it is somewhere around 230 lbs.  For years I have longed to be at my after-4-kids-weight of 138, but now I just want to be under 200 and then go from there.  Later on I will share more of my story and how God has saved me from so much.  If it weren't for Him dragging me out of the gutters of life, I'd be dead or worse....living without Him.  So, for now I begin.  I hope this blog helps me to focus and helps someone else along the way.